Suicide: You're Worth so Much More Than Death

On my mind today is the subject of suicide and what it means to those around us and what it really means for someone who is suicidal or tried to actually commit suicide.

People who attempt to commit suicide don't want to die, they want their pain to end. They want to stop feeling all the terrible emotions and going through the bullshit life is throwing at them because it causes too much mental and physical pain for them to deal with.



Often they feel like their life is caving in on them and they have no idea how else to retaliate than to just end the pain, but I'm here to tell you now that suicide shouldn't be your way out.

Coming from actually having tried to commit suicide various ways throughout my life, I am talking from a place of experience and not outside speculation. I know what it's like to feel so low you want the pain to end. I know what it's like to feel like your life is caving in around you.



You never ask to feel like this, but that is the hand life dealt you and it sucks. It's not a crime to ask for help or rely on others, but only rely on those who you know you can truly trust because some people will judge you. Those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter.



Don't ever feel so low about yourself that you feel your only way out is to die. Even if you don't want to wake up sometimes, push yourself to. It's okay to feel like that sometimes though. It's okay to spend a whole day in bed. It's okay to feel sad. It's okay for your emotions to consume you. Life isn't meant to be emotionless.



People care about you and love you, people don't want you do die. But if you want to die and you honestly feel that nobody cares about you, then why do you want to die anyway? If you feel nobody loves you then there is nobody for you to worry about.



So instead of killing yourself, why not just get the fuck out? Leave your room. Leave your town. Leave your country. Visit somewhere new. Follow your own direction. Follow your gut. Fight someone for the sake of fighting. Fuck someone for the sake of fucking. Swim with a dolphin. Fight with a shark. No matter what you do, compared to the alternative you would be safe.

And maybe you finally see the world for how beautiful it is.